The Joy of Motherhood

Well I survived my first week alone. I learned that I will have my good days and bad days. That my love of being a mother makes the bad days worth it. I am grateful that my daughter loves me unconditionally, even when my nerves are shot and I get upset with her easily. I am grateful for the random hugs from Morgan through out the day confirming her love. Morgan is a sweet heart, as tears are running down my face she looks up with her big blue eyes and asks "Mommy are you okay, are you sad, tired, or hurt". I am grateful that I must being doing something right as a mother when I ask Morgan if she needs help and she says "No thanks". Morgan's new phrase is "Mommy I am proud of you", as if the Lord knows I need some extra encouragement. I love being a mother of two, and I love seeing the bond developing between Riley and Morgan.I am grateful for the extra encouragement from friends and family. Most of all I am grateful to be blessed to be the mother of two wonderful children.

Easter

Easter was a success. We had a great time getting together with family. Morgan had so much fun finding eggs. She also had fun with her best friend, her cousin who she calls ishish, because she couldn't say shaylie. Shaylie is so cute with Morgan, and Morgan thinks the world of Shaylie. They will be great friends to come. Shaylie is the only cousin Morgan has. Riley will probally love Shaylie too. We love Shaylie!

Morgan had no problem finding her easter basket. It is fun watching the excitement as they find their eggs and basket.

Morgan is always willing to help. Hopefully she keeps up her eagerness to help as she get older

Who can resist that face, absolutley adorable, and my adorable sister who I just think the world of. I just love this picture.

Two Peas in a pod!

• My cute little family is adjusting to the new additon. We love having Riley here, he brings such joy into our lives. It is amazing how fast time goes when your not pregnant. Riley is now 2 weeks old. Two weeks when your pregnant seems to go on forever. You forget how much they eat while they are a new born. Riley is such an easy baby so far. He is very calm and not to fussy. I have to admit that I am sad that my time with Jeremiah is running to an end. On monday he has to go back to work, and I will be left alone. If anyone has any advice for me on how to survive a two year old and a baby, anything would be great. I have been spoiled having Jeremiah home for so long. He has been a great help, ecspecially with Morgan. Morgan has been all daddy lately. Morgan is so good with Riley, she informed us a couple of days ago that Riley sleeps all day. She also tells Riley, "Come on buddy wake up". So cute what they say. I love my family and am excited to continue to watch them grow and succeed.

Blessing Day

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  What a great Day! Today we blessed are cute little Riley. He was so cute is his oversized outfit, that I found out latter that I put on backwards. It was a small family gathering, and it was such a nice personable event. I am so grateful for family that took the time to come to Logan. I have a great family, both on my family and Jeremiah's family. I have to admit that I have been spoiled this last week, having family here. The best part about it is that Jeremiah has been home and will be home with me for another week. I don't know what I would do with out him. I have become so dependent on him for everything, he is my lifeline, the love of my life. It is so fun watching my family grow. I am a little nervous about how I'm going to handle everything once Jeremiah goes back to work, but I am sure I will manage. I am not the first one to have two kids under 3. Morgan loves Riley, she has been more resentful towards me, and has been a total daddy's girl. I want to pick her up so bad, but having a c-section I can't pick her up. So can I just say, don't go shopping for clothes a week after you have a baby it is so depressing. I wanted to find something new that wasn't maternity, but I came home empty handed and ended up wearing something maternity to the blessing. I was actually feeling good about myself because I managed to get no stretch marks and was 30 pounds lighter with Riley than Morgan. So word of advice don't go shopping right after a baby. But it is all worth it to have baby riley.

Our Boy!

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  Well I thought I would give and update on my cute little family. I am happy to report that I came home yesterday with Riley. He is so much fun. The C-section wasn't so much fun, but I survived. It was actually better that I thought it would be. Getting an IV was worse than the Epidural, I had a student nurse trying to find my vein, can I just say "oooowwww". Jeremiah had fun in the operating room, he was able to take the video camera and the camera in. The Video Camera died part way through but he got some graphic pictures, which I won't be posting. It was strange to go to the hospital feeling so good, and Jeremiah would put it, it felt like we were shopping for a baby. Wake up and in the morning and decide to get a baby. It was nice having it schedualed. It was a lot better that last time not having to be in labor for 18 hours and then a c-section. I am recovering so much faster. With Morgan I was in the hospital for 4 days. With Riley 21/2 days. The greatest part was that I was the first person to hold him, they didn't even give Jeremiah an option to hold him. With Morgan I had to wait an hour before I could hold her. So the doctors scored points in my books, since I was going through all the hard work, I should be the first to hold him. Riley seems so small, he weighed 9pds and 20 inches. I love having a boy. At first I really wanted another little girl, but after holding him and seeing him I wouldn't trade him for the world. It is such an amazing experience to hold a new born baby, a baby you've been carrying for 9 months.

Moment has arrived

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I must admit I am nervous about tommorow. I can't believe that the day that I have been counting down to is finally here. You would think that having already had a c-section I wouldn't be so scared, but I am. I think it is the unknown, having a different doctor, and going under the knife again. I am happy to report that I didn't gain as much weight with this baby as I did with Morgan. I am 25-30 pounds lighter, so that puts a smile on my face. If I could I probably would go to water aerobics one last time, but since I have to be at the hospital at 5:30am in the morning I think I will pass. I am just grateful that I was able to go on monday. It seems like its not possible that I am having a baby. I feel to good today. If it wasn't for my belly I would question wether I was really pregnant. I am also anxious to find out how big my baby boy is. I really hope that he is not as big as Morgan coming in at 10.5 pounds. We will see soon enough. I thought I would share one last before picture of myself.

My stomach won't be as firm tommorow without the baby in it :) Well as you can see I am pretty big, people are asking me if I am having twins. Well I am excited, once I get over my fear of my surgery, 9 months is a long time to be pregnant. My cute little family will have a new additon in no time at all. I think Jeremiah is excited to have a boy. He's been a good sport dealing with two moody women. I am just grateful that he let me get my hair done, and buy some makeup to help with the post pregnancy blues.