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  My cute grandpa

  

  My sleeping beauty, she is out cold. No problems getting her to sleep tonight!

  Wow, what a week. Jeremiah is done with finals but I feel like I never see him he is so busy with work and christmas parties that sometimes he doesn't come home until after 9:00. Hopefully things settle down for him, at least someone is having good meals. I never feel like cooking Especially being pregnant that I just have salad, cereal, or sandwiches. I am debating whether or not I should give up on afternoon naps for Morgan. Part of me just doesn't have the heart to give it up, it's selfish but I enjoy the alone time a chance to breath. But the problem is she isn't going to bed at night. It is such a battle getting her to sleep. Last night she didn't get to bed until 12:30, it made for a long night. I love being a mother but their are some days in which I feel like she has more control, or I just want to give her the control because I feel like I don't have the strength to put her in time out again, or tell her no. But somehow I find the strength I remind myself that I am the parent, and she will still love me. It is fun to watch her get so independent but at the same time it is hard. She is just like me that she gets so Frustrated if she can't accomplish the task that she is working on, and she doesn't want my help. I guess that I am getting a taste of my own medicine.

  Tonight she head bang me and I had to put her in time out, and she was crying and I was crying. It was not a pretty sight. But there are always those tender moments when they come up to you and stroke your cheek and show so much concern even for a two year old that it melts your heart. Today I gave her the option of having quite time in her room, it worked for about 45 minutes but she wouldn't sleep even though I knew she was tired. But I didn't enforce it I would rather her go to bed early tonight, which I just put her down, she feel asleep on the floor at 7:00pm, right after she gave me a smile. I tell you when they get tired, there is no reasoning with them, but after 3 times in timeout and putting on her favorite movie the polar express she relaxed and feel asleep.

  On the other side of things, it fun watching morgan get independent, but it is hard to see my grandpa become so dependent. He is at the V.A nursing home with alzheimers. On wednesday Jeremiah called me and told me that he had a heart attack or a stroke and they didn't know how much longer he was going to live. So far he seems to be hanging on. He always seems to have a smile on his face. I have a deep love for my grandpa, he always had a way of saying just the right thing. He was a flatter, and a good one at that. I know that when it is his time the lord will take him.

  Well all in all everything is great, I miss having a christmas tree though. Since we won't be her for christmas we decided not to get a tree. The only thing that seems to being calming my nerves is my weekly dose of water aerobics. I always hate when I have to miss it. It is so refreshing ecspecially when I am getting so big that the its hard to motivate myself to do anything else other than light aerobics. Well I probablly should go spend some time relaxing.